By HIS Stripes...

I AM HEALED!  Stage 0, 0/2 lymph nodes (cancer not found in lymph nodes), both "girls" gone (the new ones are looking better than the old ones. Woot! Woot!) , final pathology report was great, which means...Cancer is G.O.N.E!  No chemo, no radiation, no hormone therapy required.  Cancer was completely contained!  When the surgical oncologist told us both Andy and I cried.  Honestly, I wept and wept and wept while saying "Thank you Jesus, Thank you Jesus! THANK YOU JESUS!. Unstoppable tears of JOY came from my tired eyes and rolled down my cheeks...finally. Finally, tears of happiness! 

This is the miracle we have all prayed for. Another great example of God's promises being true.  I've told my family and friends. I've told Facebook.  I've told complete strangers at Walmart while waiting to be checked out.  I've told it to anybody that would listen!  My God answered OUR prayers. He showed great mercy upon me and delivered me from cancer.  He is true to His word and I will forever thank and praise him! So why haven't I shouted this great news to the Blogger world????  For days I've wondered the same thing. 
Many friends and family have asked me over and over why I haven't written a post lately. My responses to all the questions of why I haven't have been all over the place.  I'm still on medication.  I'm just too tired.  I'm enjoying my mom being here for 2 weeks.  I'll write when I am moved to write. These are all true excuses. Notice that I used the words "true excuses."

However, the main reason is because it's just too mentally painful. Just logging on this blog and seeing the posts and the pink background takes me back to the "dark time."  This blog was set up to be my therapy and to help other women that were in my position. Even though I had a good attitude during the time I had cancer, didn't mean that I wasn't sad or that I didn't cry.  I cried A LOT.  Some days my only goal was to get through the day without crying.  In addition to mental pain, the blog takes me back to a month of my life that I've subconsciously tried to block out. The month of January was so hard and tiring that it seems like a lifetime ago.  My memory is fading very quickly about January (that or I'm shutting it out on purpose...)

So now you know and hopefully understand the reason why I needed a blogging break. Maybe after this post it will get easier to log on.  I have SO much to share, I just need the strength to log on and type.

Praise Report:

*Cancer was contained...no treatment necessary   Glory to God in the Highest!

Prayer Requests

*Strength to share my testimony. It's so hard to go back to January, the month that I've mentally blocked out.  I don't want to block this month out of my memory.  I want the pain, the hurt, and the tears to be used for His glory and good.

You have answered my prayers. You have healed me of cancer.  You never left me or forsaken me. You are true to your promise. Thank You!  Thank You!  Thank You!  However, I'm selfish and I don't even want to think about that dark time.Forgive me sweet Savior.  It is that time that I heard you, felt you, and saw you more than ever in my life.  Please bring forth each and every memory...good, bad, and ugly.  May I never forget how you comforted me when I had cried out to you or how your spirit softly whispered verses and hymns in my mind when I was scared.  Allow me to let go of the hurt that cancer brought to me.  Allow me to look at the positive each day and not fall into the self pity trap when I am mentally down.  There are so many great things that have come of this awful cancer...Use me to be the vessel to show others of your  Word, Promises, and Light. 

Hugs to all,

Amy